Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? Before the monsters caught up to you..
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? And everybody believed in you?
Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days? And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep? Before the monsters caught up to you?
Who you are is not what you did You're still an innocent
This holiday, i've been through quite alot of emotions. Like a bowl of ABC. It is mainly happy, pink (sirap), but there are also splotches of decaying heart, brown (gula melaka.)And all the red beans, green things etc symbolises..well.. the little things in between. I suddenly realise i talk crap when i'm upset. Sorry. :P
My main attractions of this holiday is my trip to Hong Kong and all our St John trainings. Now that both of this is over, i spend my free time listening to music, reading novels and looking at other's blogs. You know how people always put their blog links on facebook? I click and have a look at them although i haven't a notion who wrote that blog. Made some very interesting discoveries though. Like 'Eh? my friend knows this person.' lol.
I went to the hairdresser today to trim my hair. I can tie my hair now. 2 months ago, i would've been delighted. Now, it just reminds me more of my failure. Should i cut it, once and for all? I'd hate to tie my hair up. I look ugly with my hair tied up. I have what the elder persons in my family call, 'zhaofenger'.big ears, which is bad. But if i have short hair its good. Helps to shape my hair. I'm gonna google it. Oh look! there's this answer:
'I had the exact same problem at school, except mine are a funny shape too Then I couldnt be bothered with the problem anymore so I just tied it up like everyone else does I then realised that nobody actually cares :)'
fine. I hope people don't look at me in a way that will make me feel uncomfortable. I want to save the trouble of being caught by the pengawas so I'm NOT planning to leave my fringe unclipped untill i see a discipline teacher. Any ideas, Melanie? (if u just so happen to drop by) Anyway, i was just thinking why do some people wanna leave their fringe down and panic when they see a discipline teacher? Not wise.
Oh wait, i like this answer.
Don't worry so much about the size of your ears; wear your hair any way you want. Maybe they aren't as big as you think and if they are it shouldn't really matter. I think my ears are a little big, but I don't let that stop me from putting my hair up. I accept it, it's just a part of who I am. Don't live in fear, just be who you are. I wish I could say something really inspiring to help with your apprehension, but it's up to you to take control of your life. Confidence is the key word when it comes to accepting who and how you are.
Alrite, if i'm that desperate i WILL slick my hair back in a not long nor short ponytail. Just.. don't laugh, ok? I have no confidence in this, so I'm gonna need some. And good luck to all those who have sticking out ears =)
Still trying to get comp squad out of my mind. It doesn't allow me to let go of it. It means the world to me. And still does. A little. I had the slightest protest and sadness of going to my St John activities. I was afraid. Like last time, everytime someone said 'oh? you didn't get in comp squad?' my heart shattered. If you know someone who sufferesd from a recent failure don't poke at them. If not you'ld get the same taste of failure someday.
I remember an incident when i was in primary school. I entered a storytelling competition and didn't get a prize. Everyone said 'Oh, you should've got a prize, you were better than XXX.' No one knew that this made me feel worse. Untill a friend of mine said ' Aiyah, don't talk like this'.. and told me that its ok. I wanted to hug her. Thank you Kah Mun, i will never forget that.
Going to Lick Hung is a very different step for me. I learnt about failure in competitions. Growing up at SJKC Sg Chua was different. My M class friends, i miss all of you. Every contest had at least 3 winners from our smartypants 'best' class. Naturally, as the class monitor of std one class 1M, teachers always put my name in contests. It still puzzles me though, maybe because i always help them to carry books? I still remember spelling 'pedestrian' in the finals of one of the spelling competitions and winning the gold prize like it was yesterday. Ah, the sweetness of it..
Thats it. I want to pick up my confidence and continue for next year's comp squad. Go for it. Wish me luck. =)
Song for the day- Innocent- Taylor swift Complain- David Archuleta THings are gonna get better- David Archuleta
There are strings in the human heart that had better not be vibrated. Charles Dickens
"Reality can destroy the dream; why shouldn't the dream destroy reality?" - George Moore
“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”
Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? Before the monsters caught up to you..
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? And everybody believed in you?
Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days? And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep? Before the monsters caught up to you?
Who you are is not what you did You're still an innocent
This holiday, i've been through quite alot of emotions. Like a bowl of ABC. It is mainly happy, pink (sirap), but there are also splotches of decaying heart, brown (gula melaka.)And all the red beans, green things etc symbolises..well.. the little things in between. I suddenly realise i talk crap when i'm upset. Sorry. :P
My main attractions of this holiday is my trip to Hong Kong and all our St John trainings. Now that both of this is over, i spend my free time listening to music, reading novels and looking at other's blogs. You know how people always put their blog links on facebook? I click and have a look at them although i haven't a notion who wrote that blog. Made some very interesting discoveries though. Like 'Eh? my friend knows this person.' lol.
I went to the hairdresser today to trim my hair. I can tie my hair now. 2 months ago, i would've been delighted. Now, it just reminds me more of my failure. Should i cut it, once and for all? I'd hate to tie my hair up. I look ugly with my hair tied up. I have what the elder persons in my family call, 'zhaofenger'.big ears, which is bad. But if i have short hair its good. Helps to shape my hair. I'm gonna google it. Oh look! there's this answer:
'I had the exact same problem at school, except mine are a funny shape too Then I couldnt be bothered with the problem anymore so I just tied it up like everyone else does I then realised that nobody actually cares :)'
fine. I hope people don't look at me in a way that will make me feel uncomfortable. I want to save the trouble of being caught by the pengawas so I'm NOT planning to leave my fringe unclipped untill i see a discipline teacher. Any ideas, Melanie? (if u just so happen to drop by) Anyway, i was just thinking why do some people wanna leave their fringe down and panic when they see a discipline teacher? Not wise.
Oh wait, i like this answer.
Don't worry so much about the size of your ears; wear your hair any way you want. Maybe they aren't as big as you think and if they are it shouldn't really matter. I think my ears are a little big, but I don't let that stop me from putting my hair up. I accept it, it's just a part of who I am. Don't live in fear, just be who you are. I wish I could say something really inspiring to help with your apprehension, but it's up to you to take control of your life. Confidence is the key word when it comes to accepting who and how you are.
Alrite, if i'm that desperate i WILL slick my hair back in a not long nor short ponytail. Just.. don't laugh, ok? I have no confidence in this, so I'm gonna need some. And good luck to all those who have sticking out ears =)
Still trying to get comp squad out of my mind. It doesn't allow me to let go of it. It means the world to me. And still does. A little. I had the slightest protest and sadness of going to my St John activities. I was afraid. Like last time, everytime someone said 'oh? you didn't get in comp squad?' my heart shattered. If you know someone who sufferesd from a recent failure don't poke at them. If not you'ld get the same taste of failure someday.
I remember an incident when i was in primary school. I entered a storytelling competition and didn't get a prize. Everyone said 'Oh, you should've got a prize, you were better than XXX.' No one knew that this made me feel worse. Untill a friend of mine said ' Aiyah, don't talk like this'.. and told me that its ok. I wanted to hug her. Thank you Kah Mun, i will never forget that.
Going to Lick Hung is a very different step for me. I learnt about failure in competitions. Growing up at SJKC Sg Chua was different. My M class friends, i miss all of you. Every contest had at least 3 winners from our smartypants 'best' class. Naturally, as the class monitor of std one class 1M, teachers always put my name in contests. It still puzzles me though, maybe because i always help them to carry books? I still remember spelling 'pedestrian' in the finals of one of the spelling competitions and winning the gold prize like it was yesterday. Ah, the sweetness of it..
Thats it. I want to pick up my confidence and continue for next year's comp squad. Go for it. Wish me luck. =)
Song for the day- Innocent- Taylor swift Complain- David Archuleta THings are gonna get better- David Archuleta
There are strings in the human heart that had better not be vibrated. Charles Dickens
"Reality can destroy the dream; why shouldn't the dream destroy reality?" - George Moore
“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”
Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
A girl who loves to daydream. currently studying at SMK Seafield. Archieholic. Born on 19th February. Mixture of Aquarius and/or Pisces.
Loves my friends that stick by me through thick and thin, my family and everyone out there...
Dreams to go to the Louvre museum, Espana, and maybe travel round the world?? Oh, and meet David Archuleta in person..
My ambitions are.. to be a doctor. But if I can, I'd love to be a cardiothoracic surgeon. Have to work really hard for that.
sounds impossible.. but i might achieve it.. there's always a chance and time for everything.
I would love to have new friends as it is always nice to have friends.. so.. leave a word on my tagboard please.. :)
For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return.
-Leonardo da Vinci
"Don't ever let yourself believe that the role you play in the lives of other's is not an important one, especially in the lives of the ones you love and who love you. No matter how big or small that role is, or may seem, it's a very important one, and it is one that only you can play." Don't underestimate yourself. Someone out there may need you. -David Archuleta
Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.
Mother Teresa
Every time you see someone in distress, you have the opportunity to work as a team with Heaven's angels. You become the channel for your angels to provide loving care to those in need.-Doreen Virtue
Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.
- Groucho Marx
"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
-- Albert Einstein
缘分是本书，翻的不经意，会错过细节，读的太过认真，又会流干眼泪。
I have dreamed in my life, dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas; they have gone through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the color of my mind.
Emily Bronte
Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
Charles Dickens
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything? Before the monsters caught up to you..
